Poulsbo

Wow. That was a long day. 9 hours underway. After dropping the anchor, I sat at the bow of the boat, looking at the harbor. There was a gentle breeze and sun was warm. I looked over, remembering when Poulsbo was a massive accomplishment. When it was the ‘furthest north’ point.

And I think about what this summer was for us.

This life… Living on a sailboat… It’s hard. It demands so much from me and it’s different than I thought it would be. It’s harder. It’s a lot harder. And I knew it was going to be very hard. I’d like to say it’s worth it. And for the first 2 summers, I felt like it was.

But for me, the struggle is outweighing the joy. By a lot.

There’s a lot of components as to why I’m feeling the way I am. And here isn’t the place to deep dive into them.

…I don’t want to stop cruising.

But continuing on the way we have, living on the boat full time… needs to change.

Idk what that change looks like, which isn’t comforting, but I know we’ll figure out something.

Brian was getting the dinghy ready while I was having all these thoughts, and we took Maui to shore together and went to dinner.

Surprise, surprise… The bar we went to had Disney music BINGO. We played and enjoyed a beautiful sunset.